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Finding balance again….

Finding balance again….

I want to be who I was before I decided to jump into competing. That was a girl who lost 30+ pounds. No trainer. No food scale. No meal plan. Just eating healthy food that I loved. And working out because I loved it even more!!! Because my body is in such a sensitive state it will be some weight gain. Possibly a lot. Hopefully not a ton. But I have to remember that my body will eventually adjust and go back to its happy place. The steps I will take to achieve this
1. Throwing out the scales!!! I will not weigh myself or my food. This was becoming an obsession. Which felt like it was leading to depression. No scales will define me.
2. No meal plan. No tracking calories. No macro counting. Another obsessive behavior that drove me crazy and made me upset with myself when I was not able to satisfy a craving. Or if I do satisfy my craving. Led to even further binging behavior cause its like screw it I messed up anyway. Eating without guilt. I will eat healthy balanced meals like I know I can but if I want fruit. I will eat the fruit. If I want cereal. I will eat it. If I want some chocolate. Better believe I will have some chocolate. It’s about balance!!!
So now my list only has 2 changes. Lol. But for me these 2 are huge!!! I refuse to let fitness take over my life in a negative way. I’m ready to lift heavy because I love it. Not because I have to! I am ready to go to lunch with a friend unplanned because I still have to live my life. This will be a new learning process for me. In the end…I’m just striving for happy. Healthy. And fit!!!


The Transition Period….1 week post competition

The Transition Period….1 week post competition

During contest prep I was hearing so much about post competition rebound. I was determined to not let that be me. I had a plan set up for my self, I had done so much research, and I would even look at previous competitiors and just say, that will NOT be me. 1 week post competition and it is a HUGE mind game. So much harder when it is actually you dealing with the issue yourself! You are faced with the same temptations from food that you were before. Except the difference this time you have no reason to say no because your competition is over!

Coming off of competition prep is to me way harder than being on prep. Only because everything is structured and laid out where as post competition it’s like you are free. You can’t go back to eating the amount of food you were before competing because the bodies metabolism will not be able to handle it. But at the same time your body still feels hungry as your steady on this reverse diet. It then leads to binging which sucks even more.

I set up a reverse plan that I have been working on but not 100% following. I still feel bloated and almost wondering how much of this is fat that I have put on. I refuse to get on the scale to make myself even more upset

What’s weird…at the same time I feel so much better. My energy is back up. I am not on a “I have to go to the gym” schedule. I am able to focus on other things. My body is becoming more regulated overall. So then it becomes a battle between being happy and just healthy with some extra weight on or remembering how miserable being at 11% BF or at least how miserable it was getting there. My ultimate goal right now is to find balance between being happy and healthy yet being happy with my figure. Not losing control and obsessing over food and to eventually not have to track calories and macros. But I know it has to be taken a step at a time because my metabolism is nothing what it used to be.

If you are considering competing keep all of this in mind and have a plan post competition as it will be a tough transition. 95% of competitors I’m sure deal with it. I’ve noticed some deal with it by prepping for another competition only to have the same mental struggle after the next. I’m looking for a long lasting solution. Because of this I doubt I will compete again unless I know I am stronger mentally. My body is normal again. And the prep is not miserable while eating enough calories to keep me breathing. (Refer to my previous blog post concerning how my prep was)


2012 in review

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

4,329 films were submitted to the 2012 Cannes Film Festival. This blog had 24,000 views in 2012. If each view were a film, this blog would power 6 Film Festivals

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Posted by on December 30, 2012 in Random


My abs are being shy

So I finally have abs showing! Only 2 though. Lol. The others are there but just hiding ;-). Committing to clean eating is NOT easy. I got healthy eating down. But clean? Not so much. The difference between the two is with healthy eating you are eating fruits, Whole grain carbs and still having treats every so often. With clean eating it is low carb. Small meals. No sugar ANY where. Some even say no fruit because of the sugar in fruit. So where I have the high fiber brown sugar oatmeal with a fruit protein shake. Clean diet would be plain oatmeal with some egg whites scrambled. Or a sample dinner for a clean diet would be a piece of chicken or fish baked with green veggies. Where’s the rice or sweet potato?? Sigh. So this is my dilemma. I want to try clean eating again but I still like having my treats. I’ll get there soon! 4 months until Miami!


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Posted by on May 2, 2012 in Fitness, Random


Personal Trainer?

Yea maybe not but my friends and family treat me as such and it’s so fun. By the end of it they hate me. Lol. I worked out with my friend Ashley today in town from Pittsburgh. She snapped a photo of me working out. That was pretty cool considering I have no action shots of me exercising. And you can see the shadow of my quads. Lol. So I had a really good time challenging my friend to things she thought she wouldn’t do again and helping her on her way to reaching her goals. Many have told me I should personal train….I dunno. Still thinking!!!


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Posted by on April 27, 2012 in Fitness, Motivation, Random


Gotta reward yourself every once in a while

I love my new gift to myself! I’m so excited for my heart rate monitor. I’m sure no one finds it as exciting as I do. But I noticed a difference today with trying to stay in my fat burning zone. I think it made my workout a lil more intense. Anyway..I been having my eye on one for a few months now and I finally got myself one! 😀 I’m
Also happy to know I am still getting a pretty good calorie burn even with most of the workout today being weight lifting. Oh one more thing! The elliptical heart rate reader thing picked up my heart rate. So I saw my actual heart rate right on the cardio machine without putting my hands on the annoying metal bars that aren’t always right anyway.


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Posted by on April 26, 2012 in Motivation, Random


Self intervention

Flat abs begin in the kitchen. Yes I know this but I don’t listen very well. I must admit I have been a bit more lax when it comes to my diet since I have been in the maintaining phase. But it’s time to change up my diet again, break my bad habits and get back on the right track. Right now i am setting a new goal. More visible abs! I can see the outline but there’s still a nice layer of fat covering it up. :-p. I’m looking up new recipes and writing my meal and exercise plan for the week as we speak. I’m thinking I’ll allow myself one cheat snack a week. And will try to stay strict and consistent with this for a month. Let’s see how this goes. I will post progress!

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Posted by on April 1, 2012 in Healthy Eating, Motivation, Random


I need to vent

I hate to do it, but i just have to relieve some frustration.
I do not understand why some seem to think they will lose weight and have their ideal body by talking about it. Some just do not want to put the work in! Would exercise but still eat terrible. Or may change the way they eat but not exercise. Even those that think they will drop 20 pounds in a week….omg. Prolly the most common mistake i see people make. Its so frustrating! There is no quick fix. Sorry to say but it does not work like that. Work and dedication is required to achieve most fitness goals. Stop wishing and hoping for results and get off your lazy bums and just do it!
-I digress.


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Posted by on April 1, 2012 in Random


New Ink w/pics

So I got a new tattoo on Sunday!


Some said you must be feeling yourself to get a tattoo like that! Lol. It’s funny but true. I used to want a side tattoo long ago but didn’t have the body for it.

So here I am, feeling fit and sexy, and getting a tattoo I thought I would never get.

The only bad thing the artist said I can’t workout for a week. It’s killing me and I’m feeling so chunky. But I’ll be back in just a couple days

My friend also took some really funny pics while I was being tortured for 2 hours







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Posted by on February 29, 2012 in Random


I thought this was funny

I thought this was really funny. Sometimes you just gotta say no to the bad stuff to reach your goals! You can do it!



Posted by on February 26, 2012 in Random


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